Some May Ask Why

Yesterday marked a milestone in my life that I been working toward for the last 13 years. I finally got my vasectomy. A lot of people have asked me why I would have a vasectomy even though I don't have any kids. Well here is the simplest explanation that I can give. There are some people in this world that should never be allowed to have children for one reason or another. It just so happens that I feel like I belong in that category. I was raised in an abusive environment and have no tolerance for children. I can't stand being around them or hearing other people talk about them. My foul attitude towards children and and lack of emotional response to hearing about violence toward them led me to my final decision. In other words, it was a proactive decision on my part to prevent any future harm to myself, both mentally and legally, as well as others around me.

I'm sure there are some people who will still think that it was a poor decision, but I spent well over 13 years knowing that this was what was right for me. When asked by a great-aunt 5 years ago when I was going to settle down and have children, my other just looked at her and shook her head. She already knew what I had decided. Whether she had accepted the inevitability of that I don't know. The question I have to answer now is this. When, if ever, do I tell my mother? I have to wonder if she held out hope that one day I would relent and sire a demon seed. Whatever the case may be, it's too late now.

After returning home yesterday I felt more tired than usual. That could have been due to not sleeping well Wednesday night, the lack of food for 13 hours, and of course from the procedure itself. But later last night, after having slept for a few hours, I felt a peace of mind come over me that I had been looking for in vain. And now that i have it, I know that I made the right decision.

Mmm Delicious Apple

The new Macbook Pro came in Wednesday much to my delight. So far, I've been very happy with the performance and ease of use. It's quite possible that once I get adjusted to the new OS I may use the Macbook more than my desktop. There is also the distinct possibility of making a trip to the local Fry's store for a game or two. I must remember to buy my new toys when I have time off from school to play with them. Bah, I've got to start studying.

God Damn Hurricane

Just letting what few people read this blog know that I'm alive after the storm. The house is intact and undamaged. There are currently no water, sewer, gas, electric, or cable services where I live and I can't go home until the city gives an all clear. But I'll leach WiFi where I can to get online. :P

3rd MRI Today

I'm getting tired of these damn things. Every time I have to go in for one, I have to remove all seven of my piercings. And a few of those aren't so easily removed. Hopefully this is the last one for a while. Then off to the sleep science doctor to get results of that mess. Yay...

Just One More Test

I have one more final to take tomorrow then I get a 10 day break before the fall semester starts. I’m enjoying this a lot, maybe more than I should.

Is It Unusual?

I'm actually enjoying being in school.

It's Getting Close

Only three more weeks until classes start. WEEEEEEEEE!!!

Help Me Go To Sk00l This Summer!!!

So Far..

Still sober after 10 weeks. Have had an MRI to try to find out why I'm having memory issues and headaches. And I'm almost ready to go back to school. Yay!

Still Here

I've been sober for 8 weeks now and getting ready to go back to school. Schweet. Now I need to find a job that will accommodate that.